Wake Up

Lyrics for Wake Up

I wake on the floor naked I had the taste of the soil Weight on the shovel Face in a puddle Did I make it? How long it been since I felt my pulse in the shin How many months is it since How many more will it bring? Don't have my body They probably gon send me off in the wind I played this part to the end would never start it again Would suffer the fate of men with my lady parts in attendance Would harbor the greed of them as they take me back from my penance But the social justice Nah I don't give a fuck bout either All you did was just use it and played your part cause you need it All it is was a rusing to fake the scars for your bleeding Now it's you in your truth the excuses won't need no bruising How did you as a woman Think that this would be different? Why assume that the ruler Gives two shits if you finished Loyalty in my hubris I won't speak to the foolish Only speak to the bullet But hear the screams as I pull it Wake the FUCK up Wake the FUCK up Wake the FUCK up Wake the FUCK up If what I bleed is necessary And thou shall be indefinite I shall not speak my heresies I shall not speak my messages How come thy kingdom left me here How come thy kingdom sent me here How come my freedom never left Why can't I see the Nazareth Some nights I drink with reverence I slur my speech with every sentence I burn my teeth with every drank I tell my peeps it's medicine Life as a kid the fuck happened to me? My tragedy scene is seen as the last bastion of me So the day of judgment Won't try to play republic Won't try to sway the covenant Absolve me I'll stay repugnant Hope that they fully clothed the body and raked the carcass Hope that the bullet lodged inside me made its target Cause let's be honest Put me on a cross parade the corpus Cause with the way it's going I'll just state the obvious so don't hate me for it I just hope I'll never be famous for it The way of the bravest sorry The blade is waiting for me I said I'm Maybe it's disingenuous Or maybe it's the fact that I'm starting to realize That I don't love myself I'm spending all night attempting not to judge myself And if given another body woulda hung myself I'm on the last rope Sad to think that I had hope Dug my knees in the back row Can't believe I was that strong For these last words won't need any adverbs Just the silence cause I'm here and I'm screaming Wake the FUCK up Wake the FUCK up Wake the FUCK up Wake the FUCK up Wake the FUCK up Wake the FUCK up Wake the FUCK up Wake the FUCK up Wake the FUCK up Wake the FUCK up Wake the FUCK up Wake the FUCK up Wake the FUCK up Wake the FUCK up Wake the FUCK up Wake the FUCK up Wake the FUCK up Wake the FUCK up It's been about a few days since I left this bed Almost feels like I'm left for dead Or maybe dead instead I waste away cause I don't see any options I can see that I'm conscious but I just feel like I'm rotting and The lord forsaketh in awful places I'm dealing with loss of days The ceiling is all I gaze as I rot away I might do it but not today see There's a game coming out that I really wanna fucking play So I'll just wither and soak Maybe a glimmer of hope Will slip me a note I'm thinking it wont Cause for now I'll just divvy the rope And I'll see if holds I eat a lot and I'm bigger than most Can't shake the feeling I'm gross Can't find me appealing at all I know my loved ones need me to be strong But this atrophy is fucking up my knees and my bones so So, how do I keep going on? Has anybody got advice right fore I sign the lease on my soul? If it's a battle for the weak and the strong I really couldn't give a fuck less I just need to be home Right to the Mark Of the Beast It shows its fangs as it sharpens its teeth yeah My armor's only gold plated Feeling like I'm clothed naked And I know it won't save me if it targets my cheek Through the blackened skies I will not go gentle Take it off safety and put it on to my temple Through the blackened skies I will not go gentle I will not go gentle