Charity Dinner

Lyrics for Charity Dinner

I blew the walls off the kitchen Trying to find the new drug Something that gives me what I'm missing I end up just how I was But when I thought of the time For which I should aim Nothing came to my mind I've been stuck in the game When I thought of someone On which I could rely Not a face in my mind But the way that it goes I had to take on the wheel I leave myself in the hospital Just to know it was real And the way that it goes I had those burgundy hands And I don't get to go back now I drew my line in the sand But the way that it goes I had to take on the wheel I leave myself in the hospital Just to know it was real Oh the way that it goes Oh the way that it goes and goes and goes and goes and goes and goes I'm hiding out at the charity dinner Hand on the blade and my mind on the skimmer My eyes sunk in the face of a winner Mask tight around my neck Where the rubber gets thinner There's a chance that I win there's a chance that I lose They did what they did so I do what I do I grab a plate and I stare at the food Stay at the buffet tasting Prussian blue In this life full of capsules Explode in a powder Crescendo and nose dive Inside every hour A life full of bottles Containing my power I can't help but try The way that it goes I had to take on the wheel I leave myself in the hospital Just to know it was real But the way that it goes I couldn't care how I feel I leave myself in the past again Just to think it was real I'm that shooting star My death a mark in the sky I let myself break apart now I'm just a look in his eye I had to chase that dream I had to chase that dream