Thumbsucker

Lyrics for Thumbsucker

I been so down, been so down [00:03.33] I been so down it look like up [00:05.33] So down and yet I couldn't figure what it was [00:07.69] Hit the loud once, world opened up, and still learned none [00:10.00] "Cookie Monster is a prisoner of war" is the kind of poem I like that only God can write [00:14.44] The kind that spells out my life in the simplest terms that suffice [00:16.61] Before I pass the mic I'd like to share some advice: [00:18.91] All you protect yourself from feeling will fuck with your sense of being and become all you can see [00:22.36] A lor nigga was C-O-P-I-N-G [00:24.64] By tryna stay out of sight with a thumb between my teeth [00:26.92] Always under my arm was my best friend, Cookie [00:29.18] But my Grandma, I think, feared that it would turn me sweet [00:31.41] I been so down, been so down [00:33.67] I been so down it look like up [00:35.88] So down and yet I couldn't figure what it was [00:38.26] Chris woke up dead then I started to really bug [00:40.04] So depressed I was defunct, asked to see someone, shit a dub [00:42.21] Felt like my folks ain't give no fuck, none of us thought about my thumb [00:46.26] You know what's funny to me, is this lil idea [00:48.63] About Cookie Monster getting tortured tatted on me [00:51.26] Think of Rambo in his flashbacks when he tied to a tree [00:53.49] Emotional assimilation feels similarly [00:55.83] We were apart most of my life, turns out he got took from me [00:58.24] My Grandma gave him back once I secured my bachelors degree [01:00.59] With nothing more than "Well you stopped sucking your thumb, didn't ya?" [01:02.98] It went: Crying [01:04.31] Thumbsucking [01:05.43] Depression [01:06.58] Screaming [01:07.69] Weed [01:08.30] Loud [01:08.92] Depression/Anxiety [01:10.74] 420 [01:11.72] Therapy [01:13.61] Escitalopram [01:15.58] Bupropion [01:20.94] But yea, I guess I turned out alright in the end [01:23.77] Didn't I? [01:25.02] Didn't I? [01:25.25] (I detest all my discussions of I) [01:28.04] I been so down, been so down [01:30.58] I been so down it look like up [01:32.71] So down and yet I couldn't figure what it was [01:34.94] I did many drugs but never ever rode the bus [01:36.86] No instead a nigga de-prioritizes his needs [01:39.61] Disarmed by paranoid delusions that bring him to his knees [01:41.83] Growing out of character is how he spends the time in between [01:44.10] And therefore trapped inside a cycle of constant apology [01:46.45] I been so down [01:47.63] I been so down, so down it look like up [01:59.64]