The Man I've Always Been

Lyrics for The Man I've Always Been

Honestly I've been a couple people No one that I'd want to be again I've dressed up like a husband I've witnessed like a preacher But maybe this is who I've always been I decided that I couldn't go on pretending Couldn't face those faces or the scene Looking up with pleading eyes All of them so terrified But none of them as terrified as me There's men that want to lead you into battle There's men that want to hold you down in bed When I finally left Seattle I was haunted by the needle That city always held above my head Honestly I've been a couple people But no one that i'd want to be again Been a soldier and a priest A teacher and a thief Maybe this is who I've always been The guy who's trying not to cry In the supermarket aisle Confused why there's so many types of juice The guy who's trying not to cry Overwhelmed and overtired Lately it's just hard for me to choose I know I chose to bring you to the altar I know I chose the place to build our church But the parts that I was sure about Were weakened by the debt and doubt The weakness turned to something even worse Honestly I've been a couple people But no one that I'd want to be again Disguises, masks and uniforms None of them felt fully formed This is probably who I've always been I've done a lot of different things Said our vows gave you a ring This is probably who I've always been This is probably who I've always been