Residuum

Lyrics for Residuum

Can't take ownership Further to fall, I know this cliff I hope you notice me 'Cause I can't see myself, I'm bleeding simultaneously Erasing thoughts, my racing heart can't lay my head to sleep The way ahead like Archie Shepp, the herd of countless sheep The crown was stripped to pieces The stake remains, not free to roam, I carry on a leash Mona Lisa eyes will follow me around the tomb My mama womb the safest place for me It ain't no going back, I've sewn the gash and shown myself deceit Don't you hold me back, the furthest front was once a bloody heap My reddened sclera, hyperbolic choices within reach Just let me go or keep me here to suffer such a need Have you ever dreamt awake and can't recall the smallest things? The calmness of the pond of fallen dreams is where I sat And took a tally of my schemes What I crept up into, what I been through led me through a qualm I'll ascend to build my totem hella tall If it's heaven, then I'm mending every flaw While I'm living, keep a distance from the ball When in doubt, you build a wall and get it gone Dear God, make me capable and calm What'll face me won't break me, grant me problems I can solve He felt there was too much difference between him and them To allow for a common binding or a common life. Only when Threatened with death could that happen. Only in fear and Shame, with their backs against the wall, could that happen I sit with the drink and listen to the rain Watch her paint with her hair in two braids Lamplight puddles about the place Huddled in corners like mourners at a wake Shadows thrown in primordial cave While I watch the paint and looks away Tip ashes in my palm, I can't find a tray Watch her paint like many on guard Adorned with talisman and charms Canvas stretched across the wall It's pouring out like a heart with a hole It's like, it's like a T-shirt with only one seam I'm listening to Stevie sing "Happy Birthday" It's not mine though So I play it loud enough driving slow Bending corners hoping it might be yours I watch faces pass the bus stop coming out a store Roll the windows down, heat on humming, children running I throw up the peace sign to total strangers Who told you I wipe with my left hand? To no one in particular 'cause it felt more free like that I am, I be with my seeds Laughing at mall cops the best That say heightened security I think they know we here